It was about 6 months ago when you walked in to the home. You were smaller than my foot and more delicate than a flower petal. I kept you next to your brother and you were so curious to smell his butt, going around in circles trying to get a sniff. You peed in your bed because you were too small to step out of it and it was the first thing you did in this home. You will never hear these words; You won’t understand what they mean and you won’t know what they signify but these are some words that I think I need to say to someone, if not you.
You stayed with me for 6 months. You entered my life at a time when I was beginning my recovery and left when it was way down the road. In 6 months, we got to know each other, I scratched you and tickled you and you enjoyed licking the skin off my face. You would sprint with your brother towards me every time I got back home and jumped up trying to reach my height. It is tough to imagine what it will be like now. I always knew this day would come but I didn’t know it would be so soon. I had thought about what I would feel like when you left but I didn’t know that it will be so early. Your brother Kal is all alone now. He doesn’t know who he is going to chase around the house, who he will play with and all the things you would do together. We humans will slowly learn to cope up with it but I don’t know how Kal will be when he realizes you are gone. We don’t have a lot of memories as people count them out but I will remember you as the support system I had when I needed it most. Kal was the quieter one of you and you were the flame of the house. You would run around here and there and bark and lick and sniff and so much more. I wish there was something more I could do, something I could have been more careful about but I guess it is too late to be thinking about all those things now. I will just have to find some ways to cope with it.
To anyone reading this, Coco died early in the morning today. I last saw him alive in around an hour before his death and I didn’t even get a good look then but there is nothing I can do about that now. He had been sick for a couple of weeks but was getting better since the last 2 days which makes today’s incident even more shocking for me. I was sleeping when I was informed and couldn’t comprehend it for a while or accept it until I saw him lying there. We tried everything we could, we were giving him all the medicines, food and water he needed. He was very active for the past 2 nights which made me believe he was getting better but as it turns out it wasn’t for long. He was hardly 6 months old and was supposed to have a lot more ahead for him. I don’t even have many photos with him because I never thought I would need them so soon. I will share the ones I have here.
Here are the two dog blogs I wrote from his perspective, somethign I won’t be able to do anymore.
Since I don’t believe in an afterlife, I won’t wish him to rest in peace or say that he is a better place now but I will just say that in less than 200 days on this world, he had a big part in changing mine.